Few years back, I made a decision and gave up everything I had in my life for the thought of protecting this piece of land (when I realized its just a piece of land) to be somebody that i thought i would be. It has been long and I just feel that it wasn't the way I planned or rather imagined.
To some, too bad 2012 was not the end of the world, to others, another 2 years has passed, to some, OH YES!, NS has finally finished. Seeing batches and batches of NS ORD people, I don't really see the point of doing something halfway though putting 100 or even 110% effort in to the half way things.
Things passed down won't really clear and as you know, the longer the thing stays, the more ancient and rusty the thing stays.
To me, food, sleep and play are the most importance. In order to achieve the best of these, it comes work. Well? for what? Money of course! (Other than sleep) Time is short. Nobody knows about the future. One second later, one minute later, 1 moment later? No one knows?!
But why is it that everyone cannot just take the world as everybody's land as saying goes, peace is in the inner soul. But when everybody harbors the intentions, thats when there will be no peace.
I always thought I could really whole-heartedly give me heart and soul to accomplish this but it just seem to be god telling me, its time to move on and get another job.
After so many lessons I came to realized that regrets are really scary after my paternal grandparents, maternal grandfather and my very best friend left to the netherworld. I really respected and admired them for always being there for me and taking care of me. To others it may seem like I'm just a person who is selfish and that I have lost the love that I once had to love others. There are just so many scheming people in the world.
Is it really wrong to think of what I'm thinking now? There's always a saying that you will succeed if you put in effort and hard work and if you have the attitude. But these does not seem to be working the way it should.
I guess I'm just going to leave it to fate. I can't change the destiny. Its just too unbearable.
Giving up the things that you love is just so wrong..
I came across a saying, never give up on things that make you smile.
I will write till here.. See you soon..
