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1 YEAR AND  1 WEEK TO FREEDOM....

Few years back, I made a decision and gave up everything I had in my life for the thought of protecting this piece of land (when I realized its just a piece of land) to be somebody that i thought i would be. It has been long and I just feel that it wasn't the way I planned or rather imagined.

To some, too bad 2012 was not the end of the world, to others, another 2 years has passed, to some, OH YES!, NS has finally finished.  Seeing batches and batches of NS ORD people, I don't really see the point of doing something halfway though putting 100 or even 110% effort in to the half way things.

Things passed down won't really clear and as you know, the longer the thing stays, the more ancient and rusty the thing stays.

To me, food, sleep and play are the most importance. In order to achieve the best of these, it comes work. Well? for what? Money of course! (Other than sleep) Time is short. Nobody knows about the future. One second later, one minute later, 1 moment later? No one knows?!

But why is it that everyone cannot just take the world as everybody's land as saying goes, peace is in the inner soul.  But when everybody harbors the intentions, thats when there will be no peace. 

I always thought I could really whole-heartedly give me heart and soul to accomplish this but it just seem to be god telling me, its time to move on and get another job.

After so many lessons I came to realized that regrets are really scary after  my paternal grandparents, maternal grandfather and my very best friend left to the netherworld. I really respected and admired them for always being there for me and taking care of me. To others it may seem like I'm just a person who is selfish and that I have lost the love that I once had to love others. There are just so many scheming people in the world. 

Is it really wrong to think of what I'm thinking now? There's always a saying that you will succeed if you put in effort and hard work and if you have the attitude. But these does not seem to be working the way it should.

I guess I'm just going to leave it to fate. I can't change the destiny. Its just too unbearable. 

Giving up the things that you love is just so wrong.. 

I came across a saying, never give up on things that make you smile.

I will write till here.. See you soon..

THE QUESTION

HOW WHAT WHY WHO WHEN??

What do these words actually  means?
Surely it has to be something with reasons..

Sad times?  Bad times?  Tiny problems can build to bigger problems..

It affects the human mind on how they think and feel about the situation around them.

Everybody has a another side of themselves be it the direct opposition of character shown at the front; also known as the mask.

Why make simple things complicated?  Everything has been simple.  Just the level and amount of practice for every single individual is different; unique.

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It's just the start of the new year,  Year 2014.  It was rumoured that the world would end in 2012 which in fact did not happen.  Therefore i must say that  i was rather lucky to be still living till now.  2 years has passed and a lot of things happened in the 2 years. The sweetest memories will always be kept  in my heart till the day i die. Of course, it also didn't feel like it was a long time for me as i was busy working,  catching up with old friends and teachers. Eventhough its just the 2nd day of the new year,  it didnt feel like it. Again,  for no reason,  i had a sudden numbness in my left thumb,  seems to be a sign that's telling me I'm too enxious and i should slow down.  Sometimes it may just have been because i was rushing into things. 

Really hope that i would be able to achieve my objectives for my resolution this year. 
Just had a sudden urge to write. Grammar is bad,  sentence structure is horrible but i guess this is what i truly think and feel.

Heaving lines were bad as usual.  Had took some time to do some training but it seems that its not working.. oh well,  practice make perfect...